deprived.

feeling super lousy now.. wonder why am i so tired even though i haven't done anything. i guess... i'm mentally tired.. ever wanted to help a friend, but you feel totally helpless about yourself? was it an accident to know a secret? is it wrong to let it all out to feel better? or, is it right to be slient about it while you watch them suffer? why can't we help them? you mean, it's really okay to watch them wither their lives away..? and is there absolutely nothing we can do....? will it go away...?

just another phase, and another mistake.
why won't we speak what the heart spoke?
are there really things that are beyond the explainable?
when will we understand..?
i just don't.

all you could do now is to save me from tears.